Evangeline is two months old! It’s still so hard to believe that two months has passed… and yet it feels like an eternity ago that we were in the hospital. She’s getting big so fast. It’s not a joke when they say the time flies by! I’ve only got around six weeks remaining of my maternity leave… and it’s already 2015!
I keep thinking back to last year at this time. We could never have expected how everything would turn out. We were just settling into the house and making it our own. The living room was still that awful brown color that’s strewn throughout the house! It’s just so hard to imagine. I wonder how many years we’ll have in this house…
As I was going through pictures for Eva’s baby book, I ran across some of my pregnancy bump photos. Oh my God! I can hardly believe that was ever me. I’m huge. I know that I was pregnant (obviously) but it feels as if it never happened at all… and yet the memory of all the horribleness (which was about 80% of it) remains; I’m not really thrilled about getting pregnant again. I managed to avoid stretch marks, but my poor belly button will never be the same again!!
I wouldn’t say that it wasn’t worth it. I’m just saying I’m not overly enthused about going through it all again… especially if I’d need to be induced, ugh. That was just annoying and horrible. I am not someone who can stand being hospitalized for any amount of time. Miserable!
Watching Eva grow is amazing. As happy as I will be to return to work and sort of get some of my normalcy back… I’ll miss being able to watch every moment pass. I love watching her discover and learn new things. It’s fun being able to experiment and find out what she enjoys and what makes her smile. She’s taken to smiling and grinning at me in the mornings, either in her bassinet or when I’m changing her diaper and getting ready to dress her for the day. It’s adorable.
In celebration of her two months, I decided to break in the Christmas gift my husband got me–the photo studio set. It came with professional lights, four light umbrellas (black and white), and backdrops with a stand! It’s brilliant, honestly. He really hit the mark. He said his inspiration was us not having anywhere appropriate to take bump pictures and having weird shadows in the pictures.
The pictures turned out great! It took us some time and experimentation… but it was fun. Poor Eva needed to a nursing and nap break in between. The second bit provided goofy grins and smiles, which were definitely welcome!
I’d bought the dress at Target when I went with the mother-in-law to Target on New Year’s Day. It was on sale and despite being pink, quite cute. I’m glad I grabbed it. Even if she never wears it again, it was worth it for the photos! We’re still experimenting with hair bows. I’m not sure how I feel about them, but they’re almost a necessity for professional looking photos.
Comparing these to the ones done the day we left the hospital leave me speechless. So much change! Soon, she won’t be so tiny and snuggly… she’ll be independent and strong-willed. I can already see it building inside of her. As much as it saddens me, it’s something I’ll grow proud of in due time. I’d expect nothing less of someone who carries a part of me.
Thinking back to a month ago is hard. I was still struggling, still trying to find my bearings. I was still so upset about my body and the sleepless nights. It’s amazing how things can change. The first few weeks really are the worst. There’s still trials to be had, but at least there’s reward now. Seeing her smile, grin, or just experience the world around her is worth it; watching her eyes follow us as we move about the room makes it somehow less difficult.
We were talking about how much fun it’ll be to see her experience new things when we take her to Key West in October. It seemed like an eternity away last July when we were there. Now it feels like it’s coming far too fast. She’ll nearly be a year old then!